Beautifully composed and recited. I, too, have been there, and still find myself there, when mine are now 24 and 21! Motherhood is both exhausting and exhilarating ❤️
This is truly beautiful, and so relatable. I so often have moments of thinking this, and then I look at their little faces and think... But what else is there? Thank you for sharing
Julia, what a beautiful and poignant expression of the reality of motherhood - always torn between being needed so much and so intensely, yet loving them beyond measure. I see you in both the struggle and the joy beneath the daily grind, just as your words have made feel seen too. Thank you, truly 🙏🏼❤️
I was hysterical crying by the end of this..."I belonged to them instead..." It is the truth, painful at time and confusing, but when I think again, I tend to find the softness and release a tiny bit of the resistance.
I just don’t have words for this. Thank you for letting my words touch your heart. You speak so beautifully about this uncomfortable, confusing, raw side of being a mother. So thank you for seeing me. I see you too and you are a force of nature ♥️
This is beautiful. Oh, I can relate. How much guilt and shame we can feel when these emotions pop up. Several of our close friends are having second babies and we’re struggling with just our one, wondering why is this so hard? We have a healthy, happy toddler, are well resourced and still…exhausted and stressed more days than not.
I want to enjoy these sweet seasons more than I actually do and that dissonance can be heartbreaking some days.
Getting back to you so late. Your yesterday is now weeks away. Maybe you have not felt like this since. Or maybe you have. I know I have and I have also felt flooded with pure love. Either way, I see you, mama ♥️
I love them so much but so relate to this feeling... I wonder if it is especially acute in the lives of creatives. How hard it is to explain to a 3 year old exactly what mummy is doing behind that door and why I can't give her all of me all the time...
Getting back to you so late, thank you for your patience. And yes. What an ambiguous feeling, wanting to be our own for a while to most likely reflect creatively on our existence alongside them...I was reflecting over this today. Thank you, I feel so seen right now ✨
Hey Natalie, getting to this so late. I don't know if today you still need this words. I know i have been in and out of these same feelings lately and yet so flooded with love and gratitude. Amazing how a mother's heart can hold all these contrasting feelings within it.
Beautifully composed and recited. I, too, have been there, and still find myself there, when mine are now 24 and 21! Motherhood is both exhausting and exhilarating ❤️
Getting to this so late, but I wanted to thank you for taking time to read. And yes, exhausting and exhilarating are two perfectly chosen words! ♥️
I AM A PUDDLE
Getting to this so late. Thank you deeply for letting these words touch you. I am sorry and grateful at the same time that you can relate 🙏🏼
This is truly beautiful, and so relatable. I so often have moments of thinking this, and then I look at their little faces and think... But what else is there? Thank you for sharing
But what else is there? How true and powerful. Sometimes we forget, but I am grateful for every second with them ♥️
I know this feeling so well. Thank you for this.
I see you, mama. I see you. Thank you for seeing me too. 🕊️
Julia, what a beautiful and poignant expression of the reality of motherhood - always torn between being needed so much and so intensely, yet loving them beyond measure. I see you in both the struggle and the joy beneath the daily grind, just as your words have made feel seen too. Thank you, truly 🙏🏼❤️
Thank you once more for letting my words find your heart ♥️ I see you, heart and soul and all ♥️
I was hysterical crying by the end of this..."I belonged to them instead..." It is the truth, painful at time and confusing, but when I think again, I tend to find the softness and release a tiny bit of the resistance.
I just don’t have words for this. Thank you for letting my words touch your heart. You speak so beautifully about this uncomfortable, confusing, raw side of being a mother. So thank you for seeing me. I see you too and you are a force of nature ♥️
Only a little choked up about you calling me a force of nature, because I feel the exact same about you. Thank you for seeing me too.
This is beautiful. Oh, I can relate. How much guilt and shame we can feel when these emotions pop up. Several of our close friends are having second babies and we’re struggling with just our one, wondering why is this so hard? We have a healthy, happy toddler, are well resourced and still…exhausted and stressed more days than not.
I want to enjoy these sweet seasons more than I actually do and that dissonance can be heartbreaking some days.
Dissonance. What a beautiful word to encapsulate this. Thank you, I will remember it ♥️
So brave to say this out loud, not many mothers would dare to admit it. You wrote it so beautifully.
I had these very thoughts yesterday.
The brutal beauty of motherhood.
Getting back to you so late. Your yesterday is now weeks away. Maybe you have not felt like this since. Or maybe you have. I know I have and I have also felt flooded with pure love. Either way, I see you, mama ♥️
So beautiful. So raw. Thanks for sharing ✨
This reply comes so late, but thank you. For your patience. For your presence. And for your feelings ♥️
I love them so much but so relate to this feeling... I wonder if it is especially acute in the lives of creatives. How hard it is to explain to a 3 year old exactly what mummy is doing behind that door and why I can't give her all of me all the time...
Getting back to you so late, thank you for your patience. And yes. What an ambiguous feeling, wanting to be our own for a while to most likely reflect creatively on our existence alongside them...I was reflecting over this today. Thank you, I feel so seen right now ✨
This. This is exactly how it feels. 😭❤️
Getting back to you so late. Thank you for your patience and for welcoming my words so tenderly, Connie. Your mother-heart is precious ♥️
Thank you for this, no idea how much I needed to hear this as last night and today I am wishing just the same. ❤️ And been hard on myself for it
Hey Natalie, getting to this so late. I don't know if today you still need this words. I know i have been in and out of these same feelings lately and yet so flooded with love and gratitude. Amazing how a mother's heart can hold all these contrasting feelings within it.
I see you mama, thank you for being here ♥️
This is so powerful and desperately needed. Thank you for sharing. This is beautiful, true.
Thank you so so much for receiving my words and seeing me in my vulnerability. 🕊️
Oh Julia this is so beautiful and my gosh do I feel this way sometimes too. Especially the ending 😭
You beautiful soul, in out and all around. Thank you for receiving my words and allowing them to find your heart. I see you, mama 🕊️
Oh Mama… your words a direct arrow into my tender heart. I feel it. I see you. I see all of you… the whole sky. Xxx
Lauren, I am just so grateful for who you are. You know that, right? ♥️
This is beautiful and so very relatable!
Thank you so much for receiving my words and seeing me! I see you too, mama 🕊️